Friday, June 29, 2012

Lost Memories...

  Well last night didn't go exactly as I hoped. I thought Jaden would be asleep by 10pm because he had been up fussing all afternoon and evening. I figured he was exhausted and there would be no possible way he would be up any later than that. Obviously, I was wrong!

  Poor little guy was so overtired. He kept rubbing his face and his eyes but he just couldn't fall asleep. Mommy was feeling the same way too since I'd been up for a good part of the night before and had started my day around 5am. Long story short Jaden cried and cried because he was tired and since nothing I did (feeding, burping, changing, rocking, holding, ect...) helped I cried with him in frustration.

  Finally around 10:30ish I gave in put him in bed with me and nursed him to sleep lying in bed. It did the trick and we were both out. I woke up around 12am and put him in the co-sleeper and he stayed asleep until 3:50am. Not bad, plus we both needed the sleep! He woke up two more times since but has gone back to sleep without a problem.

  As I sit here writing this blog it just reminds me how important sleep is. I know I can't function mentally or physically well if I don't get enough sleep. Reason for my crying episode last night. Looking back on it I feel silly for crying over him crying but in the moment I couldn't control my emotions. I know this happens to lots of parents out there and I am in no way the first or last that it will happen to. That makes it seem like a right of passage, I guess. I forgot about these sleepless nights since my daughter hasn't been a newborn for 5yrs. Now as I hit a bump in the road those lost memories are slowly coming back to me. I wonder what else I've forgotten?


Thursday, June 28, 2012


  Wow, I haven't blogged in like forever! Where to begin? Haha... Well I guess I'll start with some exciting news. I am now the mother to my brand new baby boy Jaden <3

  Jaden was born on June 12th and weighed a whopping 11 1/2 lbs... Talk about a buffalo!!! He may be a bit big but he's perfect and all mine to enjoy. So far he has been a pretty good baby. He eats, sleeps and poops just like he's supposed to. However, I wouldn't mind if he slept a bit more at night but what new parent doesn't wish the same?!

  As for home life we're all still trying to settle in to our new roles as a family of 4. I'm trying to figure out how to juggle 2 kids while making sure that I still give plenty of attention to my daughter, Alyssa. I find that it's definitely harder than I thought it would be but not impossible. Everyday is a bit better and I am just trying to take it one day at a time.

  Alyssa on the other hand has had her ups and downs. She loves being a big sister to her new brother but she is very aware that she no longer gets all of her mommy and daddy's attention. It's a hard adjustment for her, to say the least. She's improving though and loves to help hold the baby (assisted of course), feed him a bottle, kiss him and just love on him. Can't really ask for more than that at this point!

  So all in all it has been an eye opening 2 weeks. Everyday I look forward to what tomorrow will bring. I can't wait for the day when Jaden can interact with all of us as a family but for now I'm just going to sit back and enjoy my beautiful baby boy. Kids are only kids once and we all need to remember that! Enjoy the time you have together and be thankful for the gift of life. I know I am!